Saturnus - Embraced By Darkness

I could not believe it - or rather, I simply did not have a place for this news. There was no matter how she asked to enter. But I didn’t want to know. I had suspicions, but I did not look for words for them, but, on the contrary, stubbornly drove them away from me. I convinced myself that Sonny, no matter how crazy he was, was still not crazy. And then, he was always such a good, kind boy, and never - embittered or impolite; and after all babies become so very often, especially in Harlem. I didn’t want to believe that one day I would see how my brother was going down, my brother was disappearing, the old light in his face was going out, I would see in the state in which I had seen others so many times. And yet this happened to him, and I was good now, talking about algebra in front of a crowd of boys who, judging by what I knew about them, would surely insert a needle into themselves every time they entered the restroom. Heroin seems to give them more than algebra.